Kiley Kellermeyer
She woke, shivering, in the dark of the night.
Something, someone, had startled her. What? She rolled on to her side and listened, barely breathing, for the source of the noise. Dim moonbeams from outside were the only source of light in the room. She had inherited the large house, along with its many shadows and corners.
Creak. Her heart hammered in her chest.
Creak. Slowly, she slid her hand under her mattress and took hold of the tiny knife hidden there. It felt so insignificant.
Creak. She sat up and brought the knife over her head, yelped, and dropped the weapon with a metallic clang.
“Dad?”
“Good morning, Ali.”
“Is it morning?” She looked out the window.
“Technically.” He smiled and the corners of his eyes crinkled. “It’s still pretty early to be awake.”
“Then why did you wake me?” she asked, frowning. “And why did you sneak up on me? I thought you were a burglar.”
Her father shook his head and walked over to the window. The white light made him look even paler than usual, but he was as distinguished as ever. He always wore that fine suit, tailored to his build, those shiny leather shoes. At odds with his wardrobe was the tie he wore; one a much younger Ali had given him as a Christmas gift. She had no idea why he wore it – sentimental reasons, she supposed. His gray hair was neatly combed and his brown eyes twinkled as he watched her.
“I didn’t wake you up. You woke up on your own. You’re shivering.”
Ali swung her legs over the side of the bed and stood. “It’s cold in here. Unlike some people, I don’t sleep in my suit jacket.”
Her father laughed. “I haven’t been asleep, Ali. I was…working.”
“Like usual.” Ali walked to her dresser and pulled a sweatshirt from a pile on top. She worked it over her disheveled brown hair onto her body and watched her father, who watched her. “Did you need something?”
“Need? No, I didn’t need anything. I was checking on you.”
“Dad, I’m 30.”
“That doesn’t mean I can’t check on you. You’ll always be my daughter.”
Ali paused and stared at the floor. A sudden rush of emotion welled up inside of her and she turned away to hide it. “You can’t keep coming here like this. It’s not right.”
He sighed and walked toward her. “I know. I know, but I can’t help it.”
Ali started folding the pile of clothes on her dresser for something to do with her hands. “You have to stay away. You aren’t supposed to come here.”
He watched her pull a decimated tissue from the pocket of a sweater and chuckled. “Your mother always left those in her pockets, too, you know. I’m not sure how many times I went to work with the remains of departed Kleenex on my suits.” He looked down and seemed to find something to pick off his suit.
“Well, Mom also turned half our clothes pink more often than not,” Ali said, snorting. “At least I’m not that bad.”
“It’s a wonder I didn’t wear pink shirts to work every day. It would have been quite a fashion statement.”
They laughed for a moment, together, until Ali cleared her throat. “You should go.”
“I should,” he said, nodding. “I will. I only wanted to make sure you were ok.”
“Of course I’m ok. Why wouldn’t I be ok?”
He didn’t say anything. The twinkle in his eyes was gone, though.
“Dad, why wouldn’t I be ok?”
He pressed his eyes shut. He looked so old. “There was a burglar.”
“What?”
“You said you thought there was a burglar. There was.”
“Oh, God! Dad, where?” Ali spun around in a circle, goose bumps prickling her skin.
“Downstairs.”
“I have to call the cops. I have to—wait, did you say ‘was’?”
He nodded mournfully. For the first time, Ali noticed he seemed slightly less solid than before. Perhaps it was the fading moonlight and brightening sky behind him. “I just wanted to check on you,” he said with a sad smile. “So I came here, like I do sometimes.”
Ali frowned.
“I saw him in the living room. I watched him, and I knew that he was going to come upstairs to find you.” A smoldering, angry look came over her father’s face. Ali was sure he seemed too pale.
“So I made him leave.”
“You made him— ”
“Leave. He ran. He won’t come back.”
“Daddy...”
“And neither will I, sweetheart.”
Ali leaned against the dresser. Her father was less solid. In fact, she thought she could see the approaching dawn through his Christmas tie. She had told him he shouldn’t come here. It wasn’t natural. But she was only kidding herself. She didn’t really want him to leave. “You can’t go. Not…not for good.”
“You were right, of course. You always were. It’s not right for me to come here. And I broke the rules this time. I can’t come back.”
“Forget the rules, Dad,” Ali snarled. “You always did before.”
“Not these rules.” He shrugged and smiled. He was so misty. What did that mean? He had never been misty before.
“I just wanted to check on you,” he repeated. “And you’re ok.”
Ali nodded. “I’m ok,” she said, tears pooling in her eyes. She dabbed at them with the piece of tissue she held. “Because of you.”
He was only a shape now, an idea of what her father might have been. “Goodbye, Ali.”
“Dad? Daddy?”
“You’ll always be my daughter.”

